At first, I thought that I had been left; forgotten and abandoned. I thought that I was in this alone all over again and I began to get bitter and angry. I felt like I’d done everything to the best of my ability, so I couldn’t really understand what I’d done wrong.

Nothing in my personal life had gone right for the past 2 or 3 months. I was hungry, no food in the house or anything and I was basically left for days on end to feed my brother. I was looking for work applying for 15+ jobs a week. I had 4 call backs and only one I got hired for. My first day, I realized the job wasn’t for me and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t just “make it work”.

It wasn’t until a few weeks later I got another opportunity. I thought everything had went well in the interview, the interviewer had seemed to like me..but at the end made a comment about me being “too serious”. (You would be serious about a job too if you went hungry for days??)

I just felt like I was falling back into my old pit. No matter how hard I tried nothing ever worked and I always felt alone. Money for school wasn’t showing up in my account so I couldn’t do tht either. I was sort of getting back into the mindset of “what’s the point”.

A few days ago, I received quite a bit of money for school when I had already told everyone around me that I wasn’t going. I’m not sure if it was because He wanted me focusing on school or what…I’m not even sure if it was Him.

I have rarely posted because I feel like crap and I feel alone…I can’t really make posts about Herakles if I’m not sure he’s around or even cares.

Maybe it’s the slight skepticism I always have when even talking about Him. Maybe I’m doing this to myself. Or He is offended/disappointed. I don’t know. I know I love Herakles with all of my heart. That isn’t the issue. He pulled me from a dark place. He’s more than a parental figure to me..beyond that. He’s been my friend and protector to the tenth power. He has had more faith in me than I’ve had in myself. I never knew what it felt like to be sure that someone loved you until him.

I don’t know what’s going on. Hopefully in the future I will make more posts about him…but right now I just can’t.

posted 1 week ago @ 12 Aug 2014
xHerakles xHeracles

snffkn:

reading tarot cards for skeptics can only be described as banging your head against a brick wall for two hours straight

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1: Quote some lyrics from your favorite song
2: Read a quote from your favorite author
3: What is your favorite season and why?
4: What phrases or cliches does your family say a lot?
5: Tell us about one of the dumbest/silliest things you've ever heard
6: What's the best part of your week been so far?
7: What was your favorite book as a child?
8: Try to say something in French
9: If you had to change your URL, what would you change it to?
10: What is the strangest piece of clothing you own?
11: Talk about your favorite movie. Your favorite scene, the best character, why you love it?
12: Try to say the lyrics to "Hot Cross Buns" in a monotone voice
13: If you could put anything in a grilled cheese, what would you use?
14: Think fast! First three colors outside of the rainbow you can think of
15. Tell us about the worst meal you've ever eaten
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Into the Wilde?

Into the Wilde?

posted 2 weeks ago @ 03 Aug 2014
posted 3 weeks ago @ 27 Jul 2014

HEH WOW WOO.

posted 3 weeks ago @ 27 Jul 2014

perce:

Bonus brownie points for why

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Love is the joy of the good, the wonder of the wise, the amazement if the Gods.

» Plato  
posted 3 weeks ago @ 25 Jul 2014
xplato xquote xTheoi xi had to post this xi just had to
posted 1 month ago @ 21 Jul 2014

jwgirl1223:

intothewildewoodforest:

You may call me Aife (E-fuh), or Wildewood it doesn’t really matter to me.

Anyway, I do divination readings and talk about things. I’m also a Herakles Devotee. I’ve been working with Him for about a year now, and I’m still learning so many new things; about Him and myself.

This blog is for me…

I would like a reading

If I don’t send it some time tonight, I’ll have your reading ready for you early tomorrow morning, sweetheart. jwgirl1223
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