At first, I thought that I had been left; forgotten and abandoned. I thought that I was in this alone all over again and I began to get bitter and angry. I felt like I’d done everything to the best of my ability, so I couldn’t really understand what I’d done wrong.
Nothing in my personal life had gone right for the past 2 or 3 months. I was hungry, no food in the house or anything and I was basically left for days on end to feed my brother. I was looking for work applying for 15+ jobs a week. I had 4 call backs and only one I got hired for. My first day, I realized the job wasn’t for me and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t just “make it work”.
It wasn’t until a few weeks later I got another opportunity. I thought everything had went well in the interview, the interviewer had seemed to like me..but at the end made a comment about me being “too serious”. (You would be serious about a job too if you went hungry for days??)
I just felt like I was falling back into my old pit. No matter how hard I tried nothing ever worked and I always felt alone. Money for school wasn’t showing up in my account so I couldn’t do tht either. I was sort of getting back into the mindset of “what’s the point”.
A few days ago, I received quite a bit of money for school when I had already told everyone around me that I wasn’t going. I’m not sure if it was because He wanted me focusing on school or what…I’m not even sure if it was Him.
I have rarely posted because I feel like crap and I feel alone…I can’t really make posts about Herakles if I’m not sure he’s around or even cares.
Maybe it’s the slight skepticism I always have when even talking about Him. Maybe I’m doing this to myself. Or He is offended/disappointed. I don’t know. I know I love Herakles with all of my heart. That isn’t the issue. He pulled me from a dark place. He’s more than a parental figure to me..beyond that. He’s been my friend and protector to the tenth power. He has had more faith in me than I’ve had in myself. I never knew what it felt like to be sure that someone loved you until him.
I don’t know what’s going on. Hopefully in the future I will make more posts about him…but right now I just can’t.
HEH WOW WOO.
Love is the joy of the good, the wonder of the wise, the amazement if the Gods.
If I don’t send it some time tonight, I’ll have your reading ready for you early tomorrow morning, sweetheart. jwgirl1223
You may call me Aife (E-fuh), or Wildewood it doesn’t really matter to me.
Anyway, I do divination readings and talk about things. I’m also a Herakles Devotee. I’ve been working with Him for about a year now, and I’m still learning so many new things; about Him and myself.
This blog is for me…
I would like a reading